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Well, I'm lost. No, not lost about what to write here. I kinda know what to tell you people. I'm in a very deep state of lost in my career. Or at least I was until a few minutes ago, when a light came to me (a friend's help).
I started my career as a teacher. I studied 2 years of Literature and Portuguese (I'm Brazilian) but the pandemic came and I had to stop my studies. But before that, I felt something was not right. I love writing. I love grammar and literature, but I felt so uneasy in a classroom (especially when I started teaching private students) that it didn't feel right. I was also doing it because both my mom and sister are teachers, so family business. Plus, my sister was pregnant and we discovered it almost three weeks before my sister gave birth, so absolutely madness.
Ever since I have known myself, I have been a huge fan of tech. I used to be that geek kiddo dazzling about tech and games with other kids who, in general, weren't into that much. When I entered high school in 2014, I had contact with other students who were engaged to tech and befriended them. I also had contact with programming in my second year of high school, more specifically with Arduino (I was so shocked when my code made a robot move). But I was terrible at math and always believed that being in the tech field I'd need tons of math. Well, we do need math, but not that much as I discovered a few years later. So I decided to go to Literature college.
And, during the pandemic, all those thoughts of my high school days came again and I decided to change majors (after weeks of thinking and talking with my family and friends). I dropped Literature college and transferred to an online college near my hometown but in a neighbouring city. I then started studying front-end, the basics as all people recommend. I went to several courses, but none of them made me learn for real front-end. So, after several months, I decided this year to try mobile. I had contact with Flutter and, wow.
My life kind of changed. I felt so much better coding with Flutter, my hours felt like flying and I progressed, but then I was approved to a bootcamp to study Kotlin and Android development, so I stopped Flutter to learn Kotlin. I had a basic knowledge of Java because my college taught me and I did a "crash course" with the basics of the language. I finished the bootcamp a few weeks ago after 4 weeks of intense training. The company was offering a job for the best one in the camp ( there were 15 women, it was a women-exclusive program) and an internship for the second and third best students. In the end, they only offered the job to the 1st one (and I didn't even receive proper feedback). It felt so frustrating because I gave myself all for the camp. I went to sleep at 2am studying and don't get even proper feedback for all the 10+ projects I've done? That made me feel like a piece of crap. So I felt lost. What am I good at all?
So, after several talks with my girlfriend (they're a front-end dev and they're more or less in the same academic year and they're one of my inspirations) and a friend, I decided to keep studying mobile because that's the field I feel more comfortable with and it's been growing up. More specifically, I'm returning to my Flutter studies because I'd like to develop for both Android and iOS and now there's even a fullstack option for web with Flutter/Dart. Because of that, I'd like to post here every day as I progress in my studies. I hope they're small posts just to keep in track of what I've been studying.
If you read this, thank you for your time. It means a lot. See you around.